Drive On!

Have you ever felt so low that you don't even care anymore that your headed the wrong direction in life? So depressed and sadened that you've lost all desire to do what's right, to follow God and seek Him? That's how I felt when I wrote this song. Often times, I become so concerned about the things I don't have rather than being thankful for the things I do have. I get stuck in a state of meloncholy that drains me of any motivation or will to follow God. The funny thing is, I know I'm headed the wrong way, but I don't care anymore. It's like everyone and everything is pointing me towards the cross, but I don't want to hear it. I stick two proverbial middle fingers high in the air and stubbornly continue down my own destructive path. It is only by His grace that my eyes are finally opened to see what a mess I have made in my life. I think the troubling thing is it has been re-occuring in my life from time to time. I don't know why, maybe I'm the most fickle person in the world, but I can literally go from trusting God and following him one minute, to cursing and rejecting Him the next. I am a very emotional person and I think sometimes I let it get the best of me. Anyway, that is really what this song is about. It's about pushing forward down your own direction even though you know what lies ahead will not bring you peace. But it also gives us hope that we might see we need to be redeemed and when were this broken, God willing, we can see our mistakes for what they truly are. The line about cigarettes I put in because I like the way it flowed with the song. I have never smoked a cigarette in my life and will probably never do so, I just think it fits well in the song, so please don't hold it against me.

Drive On

Running away from the pressure, taking one step at a time
With each cigarette, her silhouette runs further from my mind.
And this highway keeps getting longer or so it seems
But I’m starving for direction, driving past state lines.

Chorus: And I should know serenity’s never home where I’m headed
But it just won’t sink in, nothing ever does.
It’s amazing that I’ve gone this far without exploding
And as the rain pours down, it compliments tears flowing down my face
And all of the street signs tell me to turn around and just go home,
But I drive on.

Life is just a lesson, your learning from all your mistakes
But I was a miserable student, stuck in my miserable ways
I know there’s a girl there waiting wanting to have a little fun
Whatever will make me stop hurting, forgetting the outcome.

Chorus

Bridge: And all of the foolish parts of all these broken hearts are taking me over
The pieces that I need to mend these bones together lie in grace and mercy
I just hope they can catch up to me.

Chorus

… But now all of the street signs tell me just to drive until I’m worn
Redemption lead me home.