Sunday, January 28, 2007

Something New!!! (Love has it out for me)

I have been struggling greatly lately. I don't know why, but I haven't wanted anything to do with God or following him. It's been a difficult week with alot of things going wrong and me reacting in a terrible way. I hope God will break through this wall I've put up soon and change my heart. I am concerned about my outlook right now, but there is enough blessings in my life to make me realize how grateful I should be to God for his mercy and grace. Contentment is not easy to have all the time. Anyway, I had a great day today, hanging with Jordan, Ally and Harrison, and doing a Bible study with them. It totally focused on understanding God's will and how our hearts tie in to that. It was much needed for me and exactly what I needed to talk about. Hopefully, it will be a start to me coming around to having a desire to follow God. Anyway, as I have stated before, I have been writing songs lately. It has become my breath of air where I can just vent my feelings onto paper about what I am going through internally. I have about 10 songs and I'm looking forward to recording soon. What I love about these songs is that all of them are related to me in some way or another. They are all very personal. Though I have not shared the songs with most of you, I 've decided to share my lyrics to these songs and hear what you think. If you think they suck, it's okay to tell me, I will not be offended. So here they are: The first song I ever wrote is called Love has it out for me. I wrote it in early December of last year. It's about the struggle of waiting for that special someone to come into your life. It's also about trying to talk about it with people who just either don't want to hear it or just don't want to be bothered with your feelings. Sometimes, your just sick and tired of being patient. Then again, maybe you were never really patient at all. So here they are:


I can’t look at myself anymore
Without looking away
My heart has become a chord that no one wants to hear
Who needs them anyway?
It’s funny how honesty chases people away
I think I’ll stay
Wrapped inside the warmth of another meaningless day

I think I just saw a comet flash through the sky
But there’s no one to share it with me.
When love’s the only thing that has any meaning
Your just longing for her to hold you in her arms
But I feel so lonely, I can barely speak
And she is only a flower inside my dreams
And I am running after her again
But never gaining, she disappears into the wind, into oblivion.

But I stare at all the beautiful people
And wonder how they can look so happy
Maybe I’m the only one who feels this way.
I’m still waiting.

5 Comments:

Blogger A and J said...

I just wanted to add that with the music the lyrics sound even better! I must say Brent you have a gift that I marvel at.

9:52 PM  
Blogger Brent Hitman said...

Thank you Jordan. It makes me feel good to know that people are blessed by music and when it is your own, it is even more special. Thank you for the comment.

4:26 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

We should have a song swap. Also, Jimmy, Andrew and I want to know if we can hang out at Bear Central for Superbowl Sunday. Is that okay?

4:26 PM  
Blogger Brent Hitman said...

John-
It is perfectly fine for you guys to come over for the Super Bowl. I will be there right after Church and the game starts at 3:30pm. I hope you guys can come. DA BEARSS!!

4:30 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thank you. I also thought you might enjoy this: Dwight Schrute's blog.

http://blog.nbc.com/DwightsBlog/

12:14 PM  

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