Lost souls swimming in fish bowls!

So I know I haven't posted in a awhile , but life has been really busy. To be honest, I haven't felt that compelled to write anything lately. I've written a few more songs and continue to enjoy the music aspect of my life. I just haven't been motivated enough to do any blogging. I guess the only reason I'm sitting at this computer right now is because I'm sick and I have nothing else better to do. School has been hectic, but good. I like being emersed into music even if it is not the side of music I enjoy the most. I'm working as a substitute teacher assistant for SCOE now and I thoroughly enjoy it. In fact, I think I would like to use music in some way to help kids with autism. We'll see. I guess one thing I can say is no matter how unsure your life is or how many times things change, it feels good to stand on something. These past few months have been hard. People always find a way to screw things up and create turmoil. I think for some, it is easy to be swayed and want to drift along wherever the current takes you. But when we can stand in what we know is right, nothing can truly shake us. I feel this way right now. My life is just as uncertain as it was a few years ago. I've watched new things come into my life and seen doors close as well. I still don't know anything. I've seen people hurt other people in the name of God and watched how it's ripple effect trickles down to the so called "Collateral damage". This can make people break. It can cause them to lose heart and faith in everything you thought you knew. But it can also strengthen them. It can cause us to live freely in what we know and not back down in the face of opposition. We can become content in who we are and feel safe to live our lives. In my art history class, we are studying the 4 humors or characteristics of human beings. I think I definitely line up with the meloncholic state. It seems like even when I feel good about things, I still find a way to be depressed. Perhaps that is not always a bad thing. After all, the world is a dark and depressing place. I guess the point is when you have people around you who love you and help you through the hardest of times, you learn to be okay with being down or up. Pink Floyd's song "Wish you were here" has the line in it, "We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year." He's right. And guess what. We never get to leave the fish bowl. Until we die, all we experience is that fish bowl. The joy comes from others who can come along side you and love you for who you are. When they give you something like that to stand on, suddenly the fish bowl isn't really all that bad. In fact, once you've experienced truth like that, how could you want anything else. Peace and Love to all and Happy Easter!