The World spins madly on

Lately, I've been thinking about life. But to be more specific, the slow, dragging meaninglessness of it. I know, some of you might be thinking, "There he goes again, with his neverending pessimism." "Will he never quit"? Probably not!! I can't help it. I hate anything superficial and it seems superficial to me to think life is grand or meaningfull in and of itself. I just don't buy it. I just finished reading The Watchmen, a popular graphic novel by Alan Moore and Dave Gibbons. Towards the end of the novel, a character feels satisfied in this great catastrophe he has caused. But before another character leaves, he says to him, " I did the right thing, right?" "Jon, it all worked out in the end, right? Jon replies, "Nothing ends, Adrian." "Nothing ever ends". I liked that line alot. We often think we can make a difference and change the way things turn out here on earth. But the truth is, we don't know the future. All we see is each day that is given us. To us, nothing ever ends. I know it's easy to get lost in that, but it is important to think about. I guess it also has been in front of me alot too. I've also been reading Ecclesiastes. The whole book is about taking joy in your life that has been given to you even though it is utterly meaningless. No value or purpose can be found under the sun on its own. Two musical examples that come to mind is the line I had on my blog for awhile from a Counting Crows song called Amy hit the atmosphere. It said, "Today was just a day fading into another". Also, I was listening to Iron and Wine the other day. His album Endless Numbered days I think says it all. The idea that we know our days are numbered and their will be an end to our lives, we don't know when. Not to mention, the more you notice the meaningless of life, the more endless your days seem. I know I 've felt that way often. Everything sort of drags on in slow motion and nothing ever changes. I guess that's why faith makes us stronger. Life can make it seem pretty pointless to believe in anything or hold onto hope at all. If your like me, than you know you can't do it alone. But I can't roll over and die. I have to believe that someday things will change. In the meantime, the joy is, hopefully, watching your faith grow stronger. And Holding close to the one's you love. I hope this finds you well. Bye Bye, bye bye bye bye....