Adolescent Memories!!

I thought it was time to post some more song lyrics. But before I do, let me start by noting I was surprised to see that Adam Duritz did a review on Sufjan Stevens in his new web-review page, which he plugs prefusely on his blog. It is always cool to see famous, mainstream people showing love and appreciation to the more "indie", underground music. Apparently, he is a fan of his. Hopefully Sufjan can get Adam back to where he was with "August" and "Sattelites". Sufjan's songs have alot of passion and truth to them. Anyway, just thought I'd share that. The song I'm about to post is about a relationship I had with a girl in high school. It turned out that she liked me "As a brother", which I think is more of a crushing blow than just saying, "I don't like you"! I, of course, felt like she led me on and maybe she did, but I guess that's not really the point. Looking back, I can see my own feelings for her were definitely twisted. The truth is I wasn't ready. I had no idea about what it meant to give yourself up for someone else. I was a young, horny kid who happened to get along with this girl really well and wanted it to move on to other things. When it didn't, I was crushed. The emotions were real and I would be lying if I said it didn't hurt like hell, but I can see now that it was defintely for the better. We both didn't know what it truly meant to love someone. I guess that's the beauty of God's timing, and the difficulty. It's kind of like my state now. While waiting for a wife really sucks, and I wish I could speed up the process, I think once God does bless me with a wife, I will be able to look back and say, "I wouldn't have it any other way". Meanwhile, patience is the obstacle to overcome and rest assured I cannot do it alone. Anyway, the song's about the emotion you feel in a lost relationship, the pain it causes, but also the realization, later in life, that it was for the better. Hope you like!!

Adolescent Memories

The smile hides the fear inside, hanging on every word, and now I’m slipping fast.
There is a safety here in the unknown
So let’s stay, cause I’m afraid that if I only knew it would kill me.

So tell me that I’ve won your heart
Cause you took mine the day I saw you laugh
I never thought that it might be the most beautiful deception I had ever seen.
To take me, like an empty shot-glass that’s been used and worn
And shatter it on the floor, don’t bother to pick up the pieces anymore.

So tell me how can you trust anything
When rejection sends emotion its final sting
So are you happy, now that you’ve led me astray
My heart’s too weak to compete in your stupid games, you play.

I woke up this morning reluctantly
I wish it never came, 'cause now I feel alone.
I guess I’m better off this way
Maybe I needed to know that love goes farther than her body could ever go
It’s just so hard to understand in my mind
That the best thing that ever could happen to me, felt like the worst thing at the time.