A year closer to death!!!

Well, it's my birthday today and I don't feel any different. I don't know if that's good or bad, but that's how I feel. Birthday's have become less of an occasion since I was younger and dreamed of all the crap I was get. Now it's mostly just a special time to spend time with people I care about, eat good food, and reflect on the past years and where I am now. I'm 24, so there is plenty to reflect on. In many ways, I am thankful for the years of learning that I have gone through. So many experiences and circumstances have made such an impact on me and the way I see the world. Sometimes I feel like only recently have I been able to really start to figure out who I am. I don't know if that makes sense, but we often say and do things just to make things kosher with the rest of the world. We're never content with being ourselves. It's okay to like a movie that everyone else thinks is stupid. It's okay to like a style of music that others say is terrible. It's okay to enjoy reading or watching a love story even when your a "man". It's okay to enjoy football. Or Not. Ultimately, these are just simple things, but in a way, they shape who we are and our perspectives. I think it's is ironic that on the day we celebrate birthday's brings us one more year closer to our death. Not to diminish the opportunity to spend time with people you love. For that is the true value and point to life and living each year at a time. Anyway, I watched Apocalypto last night. I liked it alot. I am convinced Mel Gibson makes a much better director than he does actor. The cinematography is amazing and some of the camera angles and shots he took are pretty involved. You get this sense that Gibson puts his whole heart and passion into making the movies he does. Each movie seems to hold each detail to try and put you in the movie. You feel like your watching something brilliant. I defintely recommend it. Pretty violent, but well worth it, if you can stomach the brutality. I also wish I had a plasma screen to watch it on. This movie was defintely made to see in HI DEF. I hope all is well with you. Remember to embrace who you are as individuals, but also remember to embrace change when it comes. When our eyes are open to truth, change can sometimes be the thing that makes us stronger, makes us grow. I love you guys.

Falling behind

Hello everyone. It has been a while since I last blogged. I apologize. It is hard to find the time and motivation to sit down and write sometimes. Anyway, first of all, I would like to apologize for some of my words I wrote a while back. Sometimes, I let my emotions get the best of me and I lose sight on what could be deemed offensive. That's not what I'm about. The last thing I want is for people to be offended by the things I say. I can't please everybody, but sometimes it is pretty clear that I could have avoided the offense. I used the F-word in a blog a while back trying to describe how we let personal characteristics alter what Jesus intended as unconditional love. Now, whether you feel my use of the word was offensive or not is beside the point. Kellen commented, correcting me on my use and my response was not proper. I apologize to Kellen and to anyone else who was offended by my comments. I was wrong to respond the way I did and I'm sorry. I still am struggling with being "nit-picky" about language, so I could use prayer in that area, but God has shown me my fault in responding to Kellen's comment. I hope you all can forgive me. Okay, so I have been in limbo for a while now. I find myself wanting to do so many things and spend time with so many people that I end up not accomplishing anything. I'm starting school again soon, so that's weighing on my mind. I have these songs I want to record, but I can't find the time to organize it. I guess I should stop worrying and just let God work it out. We'll see. Anyway, Kasteen Fletcher has joined the blogging community. Hooray!! I've added her to my links so check out her page and show her some love. Here are some lyrics. Hope to see you all soon.

Time
Thoughts inside my head rush out
Fade them all to grey, today is yesterday.
What I thought before is long forgotten
And every memory flees me as quickly as the last.
Time is a sickness for which there is no cure.
With each second passing, I wonder is there anything left so pure.

Chorus: As a smile, just give me some peace for a while
As a faith, that is found in a child, so strong yet so delicate.
As a kiss, that tells me you’ll never leave
An embrace that gives me reason to breathe, but for know
I’m caught between the first and second hands of time.

Seasons come and go, as does my soul
It searches for a place to rest its weary head.
You were my angel, pulling me through
But I just couldn’t find the strength to walk over there and talk to you.
Fear is a carnivore that preys on what you thought you knew
Till there’s nothing left but an empty shell that swears there is nothing true

Chorus
Bridge: What is this? It makes me cry myself to sleep
A passion born where secrets form to keep me planted on my feet.
When all I ever wanted was to be swept away,
Drifting off into the distance where it’s safe.
To find a place where I’m not the only one who’s longing for.
Chorus