Cruel Surprise

I know it has been awhile since I last posted. To be honest, I haven't found the time or motivation to sit down and write. I have enjoyed posting some of my lyrics to songs I have been writing and I hope I can play them for many of you that haven't heard them. My latest song I'll post is called A Cruel Surprise. The song kind of models that of The Beatles song Imagine. It's about seeing things the way we wish they were. Whether it be the world, or relationships, or government, I think we all would like to see some things differently than they actually are. I guess that's where the cruel surprise comes in. When we get wrapped up in our ideals and focus on how we wish it was, reality can come crashing down. When it does, it can be pretty damn depressing. I think it's important to allow ourselves to wish for something different, to long for something better. But when we blur the lines between reality and fantasy, it can be dangerous. We can be consumed by it so much that even trying to search for lasting meaning can become futile for us. I know I have often thought about these things, especially the first verse in the song. Believe me, there is nothing more depressing than dreaming about the girl your supposed to spend the rest of your life with only to find she was a piece of your imagination. I hope you all can relate to this song in a way. It's alot of what I find to be cruel surprises in our world. See ya around!!

Cruel Surprise

Pretty dreams of fireflies dancing in a lover’s eye
And you hope that this could all come true, a chance to finally live
In your own world for two, but daylight is coming soon
And then you’ll wake up without any recollection
All that’s left is the sleep in your eyes, what a cruel surprise.

Sunny skies, hatred dies, and now we are free, sweet land of liberty
No more blood spilled for democracy or ignorance of power
Just a love for all to share every hour, but then you open up your eyes
To the evil done in the name of the flag that flies in your front yard
And sigh… what a cruel surprise.

Saving Grace, ran the race, and now all our hearts will beat as one
And we could say that we’re all like Jesus, we know how to love
Take joy in each other and peace from up above, but now we see it wasn’t true
The gift we were given was only for fools, we’d rather let sin lead us to our demise.
What a cruel surprise.

Drive On!

Have you ever felt so low that you don't even care anymore that your headed the wrong direction in life? So depressed and sadened that you've lost all desire to do what's right, to follow God and seek Him? That's how I felt when I wrote this song. Often times, I become so concerned about the things I don't have rather than being thankful for the things I do have. I get stuck in a state of meloncholy that drains me of any motivation or will to follow God. The funny thing is, I know I'm headed the wrong way, but I don't care anymore. It's like everyone and everything is pointing me towards the cross, but I don't want to hear it. I stick two proverbial middle fingers high in the air and stubbornly continue down my own destructive path. It is only by His grace that my eyes are finally opened to see what a mess I have made in my life. I think the troubling thing is it has been re-occuring in my life from time to time. I don't know why, maybe I'm the most fickle person in the world, but I can literally go from trusting God and following him one minute, to cursing and rejecting Him the next. I am a very emotional person and I think sometimes I let it get the best of me. Anyway, that is really what this song is about. It's about pushing forward down your own direction even though you know what lies ahead will not bring you peace. But it also gives us hope that we might see we need to be redeemed and when were this broken, God willing, we can see our mistakes for what they truly are. The line about cigarettes I put in because I like the way it flowed with the song. I have never smoked a cigarette in my life and will probably never do so, I just think it fits well in the song, so please don't hold it against me.

Drive On

Running away from the pressure, taking one step at a time
With each cigarette, her silhouette runs further from my mind.
And this highway keeps getting longer or so it seems
But I’m starving for direction, driving past state lines.

Chorus: And I should know serenity’s never home where I’m headed
But it just won’t sink in, nothing ever does.
It’s amazing that I’ve gone this far without exploding
And as the rain pours down, it compliments tears flowing down my face
And all of the street signs tell me to turn around and just go home,
But I drive on.

Life is just a lesson, your learning from all your mistakes
But I was a miserable student, stuck in my miserable ways
I know there’s a girl there waiting wanting to have a little fun
Whatever will make me stop hurting, forgetting the outcome.

Chorus

Bridge: And all of the foolish parts of all these broken hearts are taking me over
The pieces that I need to mend these bones together lie in grace and mercy
I just hope they can catch up to me.

Chorus

… But now all of the street signs tell me just to drive until I’m worn
Redemption lead me home.