Tuesday, February 10, 2009

...And the beat goes on

First, let me start by saying that yes it has been a long time since I last posted. It usually does. But this time, I have actually tried to post two extremely provocative and insightful blogs. Unfortunately, both times my computer froze and I lost the info before posting. So, i lost all motivation to sit down and write anything. But here I am, at the JC, in the library, with nothing to do for an hour. Might as well give it a try again. I had lunch with my friend Jordan yesterday. As we left, Jordan mentioned how important it is to have each other because when we're left to ourselves, nothing good ever comes of it. I can't stress enough how true that is. Our minds are bittersweet contraptions. So brilliant and creative and wonderful and yet so cruel and wicked and shameful. I thought about how we can never really comfort ourselves. I like to be alone sometimes, everybody does. But we were not meant to exist isolated from others. Everytime I tell myself everything is going to be alright, it never works. I just feel more isolated and foolish. But when I have others who are often just there to encourage me, I feel rejuvenated and strengthened. And it's contagious. You want to share it with other people. I, now more than ever, desire to truly, deeply care for not only my friends but the people I meet. I want this because I know how lonely life can be and how shitty you can feel when you feel alone. Honestly, I wouln't wish these feelings on anyone, but I know we all have them. And there it is. I'm done. For now. I hope this works. Take care and remember that love is greater, never ceasing, always hoping, always just beneath the dawn!!